"But this is just one factor. Women, who had no dad to relate to when they were younger, were forced to mature faster. They need to emotionally and psychologically cope with their situation and as a result they seek someone with the same level of maturity and understanding. Having no father figure in early childhood may also make an adult fearful or have difficult time in establishing a committed love affair."
By: Ruth Purple
http://www.relazine.com/singles/younger-women-with-older-men-
So hi, God this is Ashley speaking. Just one question why was I dealt such a bad hand. Maybe my father was a card counter in his previous life and I am now being punished for his wrong doings, either way it sucks.
It sucks that I can have sex with a man and feel absolutely nothing at all, but the little bit of penetration for a couple of minutes in most cases. And then There! Be done and over it and on to the next. But what sucks even more is when I am attached to someone there is no turning back. It's like I am ready to do anything to make the relationship last, so hey if that means enduring cheating, fights, verbal and physical abuse (so be it.) I do what I gotta do, weather the storm and pray for a sunny tomorrow.
See unlike Oprah, Dr. Phil and every other talk show host/ self proclaimed therapist, I never blamed my not so good relationship with the sperm donor I occasionally refer to as dad for the choices I have made when it came to men , I just thought it was me. So when I liked the older, bigger, more assertive men who told me what to do and liked to have control over me in every aspect. I thought it was me, that was just the type of guys that were attracted to me because I am such a strong willed woman, but in all actuality it is not me at all.
I'd like to think I have been living the past 8 years in a daze, a daze of choices made by someone who did not know what they were doing or why they were doing it.
Good thing I woke up and smelt the tea. ( Never would I drink coffee, nor would I wake up in a good mood if I had to smell it).
So kind of like past life regression therapy minus the hypnosis, shrink, and imagining anything that did not happen. I am going to RE-LIVE real events and see where my trip down memory lane takes me.
